[alexander would argue that his memory is perfectly fine, thank you. but the cracking of plastic polymers and the low whine of dying electronics is far more immediately pressing. he flinches bodily, some visceral reaction running through him, to the bones.
he doesn't protest the name khan gives the once-captain. he's too afraid to--the ease with which khan snapped the padd triggers something deep--fear that was programmed into him with drugs and psychological conditioning.
like a pebble starting a landslide, anxiety curls in his stomach. his fingers clench reflexively, nails digging pale quarter-moons into his palms, an attempt at distraction.
he abruptly shoves back from the table, thoughts of escape buried under a smothering layer of panic. His arm twinges with phantom pain.
the part of him that's a doctor, that's dealt with triage and trauma, the part that's julian, even unrecognized and forgotten, realizes he's having a panic attack. he doesn't know why.
He barely mumbles an 'excuse me' and emphatically does not run from the room, but he does retreat to the room where he woke up, barely even thinking before shoving the bed in front of the door--it opens inward, so it fairly effectively creates a barricade--and sitting in the corner, staring at the door.
he's going mad. he's been abducted by a superhuman madman and his mind feels like it's unraveling.]
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he doesn't protest the name khan gives the once-captain. he's too afraid to--the ease with which khan snapped the padd triggers something deep--fear that was programmed into him with drugs and psychological conditioning.
like a pebble starting a landslide, anxiety curls in his stomach. his fingers clench reflexively, nails digging pale quarter-moons into his palms, an attempt at distraction.
he abruptly shoves back from the table, thoughts of escape buried under a smothering layer of panic. His arm twinges with phantom pain.
the part of him that's a doctor, that's dealt with triage and trauma, the part that's julian, even unrecognized and forgotten, realizes he's having a panic attack. he doesn't know why.
He barely mumbles an 'excuse me' and emphatically does not run from the room, but he does retreat to the room where he woke up, barely even thinking before shoving the bed in front of the door--it opens inward, so it fairly effectively creates a barricade--and sitting in the corner, staring at the door.
he's going mad. he's been abducted by a superhuman madman and his mind feels like it's unraveling.]