[ the grip he offers back is nowhere near his full strength. it is more for julian's benefit than his own, and he hopes that it conveys reassurance. his words are a comfort, however small. ]
I won't let them harm any of us again. They'll pay for what they've done.
[ also pay for the mistake that khan nearly made, but how could he have known that christopher was taken as julian was? he couldn't. it doesn't absolve him of this in his mind. not yet. perhaps he'll feel a measure of peace when all that remains of their world is ashes. ]
After London---I was going to take advantage of their arrogance. I was going to attack the Daystrom conference room where all of the captains and first officers of the ships would have gathered in the event of a terrorist attack.
If I hadn't seen you, and done as I did---[ khan has never faltered. he has never felt unsteady. he has never question his own steps until waking to this new and wholly despicable world. ]---Christopher would have been in that room.
[ and were he as julian was, fragile like they are, and without his memories---he might have died. ]
[that was what they'd intended to do. he doesn't want to be here anymore. damn all of them--they'd destroy themselves soon enough, and spare all of them the trouble.
they just need to get the others and get out of orbit. easier said than done.
he's silent for a while--talking is exhausting, just existing is exhausting right now--he almost seems to have fallen asleep again, especially since his eyes have stayed closed throughout this exchange.
he opens them to look up, pain still evident in them, but also determination. he's still hurting, still sorting through memories that are his but aren't--still.]
[ 300 years later and they are still exactly where they started. trying to free themselves from the clutches of their creators. from those who would use them until there was nothing left, or what was---was something broken into their own faulty image.
they are better. they always have been.
khan doesn't urge him to open his eyes. were he to fall asleep, he wouldn't rouse him unless necessary. ]
We have to be patient. You need time to recuperate. We need to find a way to get to Christopher before something happens.
[ something like one known augment threat in the wind, and another thought brought to heel missing. who knows what marcus might do to an unwitting james kirk. he shudders to think. ]
[still shaking like a leaf in the wind, julian feels frustrated. angry, at loose ends. he's a liability. he's of no use at the moment, weak as he is and--
--then he feels a surge of anger, why is khan doing this to him--
but it's not him, it never was him, he'd rescued him and it wasn't khan's doing that humans hadn't changed in hundreds of years, still wanted to use them.
he's literally of two minds about all this. 'alexander' isn't going down without a fight.]
[ khan knows something of what he's feeling, but due to his ability to heal faster than any of them, his fight against 'john harrison' was never as difficult as the fight that julian must be facing.
khan only had an external source to push his anger and frustration on.
then julian asks him about the others and he tenses. ]
I---attempted to smuggle them out, but I was found out. I don't know if they are still alive. Admiral Marcus is hardly forgiving.
[julian shakes his head slowly. no. he refuses to believe that they could be that callous. for one, they've proven that they have effective methods of control on at least two of them.
cynical though it might be to say, it would be a waste of resources to terminate them when they could hold them as bargaining chips.]
You're already away. And you already have me. He wouldn't just kill them, not when he could use them as bargaining chips.
[he licks his lips slightly--they're dry, if he felt like he could swallow it he'd ask for some water.]
They were able to control me and Chris. They'd be more likely to try on the others before outright killing them.
no subject
I won't let them harm any of us again. They'll pay for what they've done.
[ also pay for the mistake that khan nearly made, but how could he have known that christopher was taken as julian was? he couldn't. it doesn't absolve him of this in his mind. not yet. perhaps he'll feel a measure of peace when all that remains of their world is ashes. ]
After London---I was going to take advantage of their arrogance. I was going to attack the Daystrom conference room where all of the captains and first officers of the ships would have gathered in the event of a terrorist attack.
If I hadn't seen you, and done as I did---[ khan has never faltered. he has never felt unsteady. he has never question his own steps until waking to this new and wholly despicable world. ]---Christopher would have been in that room.
[ and were he as julian was, fragile like they are, and without his memories---he might have died. ]
no subject
[that was what they'd intended to do. he doesn't want to be here anymore. damn all of them--they'd destroy themselves soon enough, and spare all of them the trouble.
they just need to get the others and get out of orbit. easier said than done.
he's silent for a while--talking is exhausting, just existing is exhausting right now--he almost seems to have fallen asleep again, especially since his eyes have stayed closed throughout this exchange.
he opens them to look up, pain still evident in them, but also determination. he's still hurting, still sorting through memories that are his but aren't--still.]
What now?
no subject
[ 300 years later and they are still exactly where they started. trying to free themselves from the clutches of their creators. from those who would use them until there was nothing left, or what was---was something broken into their own faulty image.
they are better. they always have been.
khan doesn't urge him to open his eyes. were he to fall asleep, he wouldn't rouse him unless necessary. ]
We have to be patient. You need time to recuperate. We need to find a way to get to Christopher before something happens.
[ something like one known augment threat in the wind, and another thought brought to heel missing. who knows what marcus might do to an unwitting james kirk. he shudders to think. ]
no subject
--then he feels a surge of anger, why is khan doing this to him--
but it's not him, it never was him, he'd rescued him and it wasn't khan's doing that humans hadn't changed in hundreds of years, still wanted to use them.
he's literally of two minds about all this. 'alexander' isn't going down without a fight.]
Is there anyone else?
no subject
khan only had an external source to push his anger and frustration on.
then julian asks him about the others and he tenses. ]
I---attempted to smuggle them out, but I was found out. I don't know if they are still alive. Admiral Marcus is hardly forgiving.
no subject
cynical though it might be to say, it would be a waste of resources to terminate them when they could hold them as bargaining chips.]
You're already away. And you already have me. He wouldn't just kill them, not when he could use them as bargaining chips.
[he licks his lips slightly--they're dry, if he felt like he could swallow it he'd ask for some water.]
They were able to control me and Chris. They'd be more likely to try on the others before outright killing them.